IM WEAK !!!

I promise i must be strong ~ Sry , i cnt make it ... Reli cnt ... Today Rao find me to meet at bilik kaunseling ... I noe tat its de time i reli should talk to him , mayb im a bit lazy recently so i din go find him to chat .... After tat ,he told me tat my fren A r using my name .... Telling everyone wong sue wan s my best fren ... N ty to get me into trouble ... I duno tat izit real or fake ... ?! May i noe it ?? Or should i jz act like ntg ...?? In tis moment i wil say tat , i'll trust u as a fren ... Bt i wil curious as a anonymous ppl ... Den , Rao thought me tat yesterday had a new practical teacher , a chinese teacher , woman hd came to our skul as practical counselor ~ Rao hd refer me to her ... She s quite friendly bt i tink so she s quite out of dicussion cz wat she chat wif me s more den my skul life n so on ~ Bt anyway , maybe she wana noe more bout me ... I hd held at de bilik kaunseling since 10 to 11.50 ~ Lol ~ long time , dude ~ Overall , tis nw im stil remember tat Rao said tat i hd chg , chg my attidue ~ N i hd chg til nt myself ...If let say last time , i wil fight for anything i ever wanted ... Bt nw ... At tis moment , i feel tat im nt actually myself ... Wong Sue Wan had dissapear in tis world ... Oli left a weaker name wong sue wan .... I used to cry every nite ... everyday ... The reason s ..... Im oso out of my mind ... Ppl would like to say tat emo ... Bt i wil say tat , whr s last time wong sue wan ?? Whr s her anger ?? Y dun u show ur strongest time ?? Y dun u let him down ?? Y dun u control urself ?? Y dun u jz act like ntg when u feel tat involuntary tears rushing out ?? All tis s my question ~ Bt i'll nvr get my answer ... I try to be stronger ! I wana be stronger ! I must be stronger ! Bt de problem s , do i hv de ability to be stronger ?? The answer s ... I dun hv ... Wong Sue Wan nvr hv it ! Nwdays , the wong sue wan u saw s oli a weaker ! One day , she wil pick up all her anger n fight 4 anything she ever wanted ! Wong Sue Wan wil hv de ability to be stronger !!!